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this little light is evolving. When I started blogging over a year ago, it was out of a cry for help.

A cry from myself to myself.

I needed to say out loud from my own proverbial rooftop that I was in pain. And I wanted it to cost less than a therapy session.

I was angry at everyone:

At women who laughed and gave me the “ … and you only have one child!?” challenge when I seemed {I guess unreasonably to them} at wit’s end with The Boy.

At women who actually had more than one child.

At those who joked about how easily they got pregnant.

And at myself. For being mad at them in the first place. Everyone has their crosses.

And I wanted to move past it. So after one particular evening when a dinner-out-went-oh-so-wrong and I completely lost it on two

good-hearted, God-sent

and unsuspecting friends, I started a blog so that I could finally do something constructive with that pain. this little light became my place to share the heartaches and the joys and say out loud {but to no one in particular … or to everyone in particular?}: “Hey, this happened and it broke me.”

And a magical thing took place: being able to do all that blessed me.

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I have gained so much over the past year. A healing. A freedom. An energy. A feeling that I’m finally doing what I love {Day 28 of 31 : Putting Words on Paper . small but grand, baby}. It’s a dream come true. The pain is not so startling anymore.

So while I never know what thoughts are going to pour out onto this virtual paper, I just want you to know what this little light will always be:

  • a place where the focus is on all the good stuff that brings us joy {though I can’t say there won’t be that occasional rant … I’m still contemplating starting a blog called the dark side where I can post about things like people who park their supermarket carts sideways across an aisle while they leisurely check out the baked beans selections … ooh, sorry: I digress.}
  • a place those who’ve lost can come to see that there is light at the end of their tunnel, however improbable that may seem
  • a place that features resources that may help grieving parents with their sorrow

and a place to remind us all that

you can survive whatever it is that breaks you.

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Comments

  1. You are inspirational Michelle and your writing is deep, soulful, honest. What a beautiful person you are; what an amazing friend. I know God loves me cause he brought you into my life! Thanks for yet again, another great post. 🙂

    xox

  2. Bonnie Lyn Smith says:

    So so beautiful! So very glad you are able to be freed by this and bless us all at the same time. Totally second and third and fourth, etc., etc., etc., everything that Francesca said! Sure wish everyone on the planet would be so constructive and edifying with their pain….wouldn’t that be something?

  3. Wonderful words!! So glad to be here. Thanx for being ‘real’ and ‘normal’ those are precious gifts in my world!!
    Deo Volente

  4. I just read your very first post on this blog. I feel like there are no words for things like that. Mostly because I feel like anything I say isn’t enough to convey how my heart hurts for you without sounding trite. I am so grateful that you have found so much healing. God truly is faithful.

  5. You gals bless me so much…thank you for your loving words of encouragement. God is good, especially when He surrounds you with such friends!

  6. Thank you so much for sharing this! I needed to read this. Your words, your kindness, your sympathy has meant the world to me. I don’t know if I will ever be able to find the words to express my appreciation. You express yourself very beautifully and in a very real way.

  7. I feel right at home here, Michelle. Your honesty and forthrightness are refreshing.

    I’m your newest follower. Please stop by and say hi.

  8. I can relate to the blog as your healer. I came to this keyboard by a similar route – a quest to be heard when my own world was splitting and turning upside down. It’s not that friends and family didn’t TRY to understand or TRY to help, I just didn’t have it within me to hear them. I needed to let it OUT first.
    I am so happy you found your sounding board.
    I love your “dark side” idea! That could be so much fun in contrast to this little light!!
    Keep writing, keep sharing and keep healing!
    All the best 🙂

  9. Writing is amazing for healing. It takes the emotions that seem to swirl around in your mind and turns them into something tangible, that helps you to understand why you feel the way you do – and often, if there’s anything to do about it.

    And blogs?
    they add that nice touch of community!

  10. Sounds like you’ve been on quite the journey this past year.

    Writing it all out has always helped me- and with blogging,there’s the added bonus of support.

  11. Just in case you didn’t know, you are an amazing and beautiful woman. xoxo

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